Happy easter everyone !! I hope everyone's easter was fun , I will be scoffing chocolate for the next 40 years ^^

I tried picking up crocheting today :3 i have one scrunchie , a leaf for my headphones, and a shitty square. Everything else i attempted was shit icl, i did watch a LOT of danny gonzales tho whilst i did it tho so that was a plus >:3

My family ordered takeout today and i got like the worlds biggest portion of chips and cheese ever, omg i didnt finish it but jesus christ i regret eating so much of it

I regret taking every subject i decided to take omg , why did they set so much homework to do for the Easter break bro ><; i havent done any of it and we go back in TWO FREAKING DAYS UGHHHH

HAPPY HOMESTUCK DAY TO ALL WHO CELEBRATE !! i had such a rollercoaster of a first school day back >< i had a feelings talk with my gorgeous bf and now we have things in place to try start fixing my problems regarding being emotionally open because it keeps causing me heaps of harm ^^; i cant believe i had a feelings talk on homestuck day. right now my website is very much a secret to my friends and family but im thinking about telling them about it. idk just getting my thoughts out there :3 OH ALSO my nan ordered me Tom Taylor's Nightwing vol 1 and i am so excited !!! im probably gonna be able to get my grubby hands on it on saturday so ill let u guys know what i think of that when it arrives B3 thats all for now tho , bye folks

the funeral was not fun , i am so miserable and i know all that will kick my ass tomorrow during school NOT excited :/ it was also terrible because i found out that bras make me dysphoric (i literally never wear them usually) so i might invest in a binder idk. also also it sucked cuz the after party , i hate parties and i just wanted to go home like not in a rude way , i love my grandad but i was so overwhelmed and i feel pretty guilty that i couldn't pay my respects by enjoying my time like everyone else, idk.. sigh anyway i have an interview tomorrow to apply for this role in my school , im trying to become an eco leader or something , im very nervous , wish me luck gang ^^

I did the interview thing and i did pretty shit icl but its okay ig. i didnt do too much today , me and my friend charlie put our money together and used our total 16 pence to buy one sweet stick thing to split in half. it was really nice ^^

I cant even lie im kinda depressed rn and like not in the tiktok aesthetic way but like in the debilitating im-an-asshole gross way so less frequent updates!! uh im focussing on getting better and not kms so i havent really done much. I bought some comics, im excited to read them ig? i got Nightwing: Leaping into the light, Absolute Flash (my fav ever), and a random issue of a Titans comic :3 its exam week this week i am NOT looking forward to my maths test TnT wish me luck guys !

I have done three of my exams so far. The maths one was okayish, The biology one sucked and MY GOD the English one today was awful. It was the longest, being an hour 45, and JESUS is that exam hall cold >:/ had kind of a shitty day aswell, i have really bad back pain rn and i had a little crashout earlier and i only just stopped being non verbal so like yikes all round. AND AND i lost the stupid fucking phone pouches they gave us and now i either have to leave my phone at home (#dangerous), keep getting detentions, or buy a new one. im too poor for that shit they can fuck right off. Anyway i have my history exam tomorrow, wish me luck gang ><;

I had my maths calculator test today , it was pretty chill. I am on the last episode of season 1 of the flash show so im super excited to watch that >< i have TWO tests in one day tomorrow, chemistry and comupter science, and i suck at both so wish me luck guys !!!

I didn't have any exams today BUT i did have to go home early cuz i was lowkey in so much pain it made me nauseous and i frew up which was not fun but its chill now ig.. i have my final two exams tomorrow, Physics and History paper 2. i will fail the physics. i just woke up from a nap and had dinner so that was nice , im gonna watch the flash show now tho and have snacks so bye bye for now >:3

exams are finished now, i wont get th results for a little bit so thats like yay ig? In English our class FINALLY started doing this cool topic where we get to write speeches on literally ANYTHING we want. i am doing mine of dc (specifically how trauma is explore through dc characters) and i am just SO SO excited about it >< a little nervous though because i will have to perform the speech infront of my class and none of my friends are in this class so it will be very scary to get up there and talk about Batman and shit when the other students are doing like reasonable things like fucking feminism or something. I wish i was in my friend's class, because a lot of them did silly topics like me but alas.. they are all smarter than me and in a higher set ><; ANYWAY enough longing, hope everyone had a fun week this week , bye bye for now !!

lowkey really miserable lately, i kinda dissociated so hard i lost my weekend. so not fun. and then i got excited cuz my mother said i could get the new TOMORA album cd and a haircut. i got the hair cut but what she failed to tell me was that i could only get one or the other. which i did not know otherwise i wouldve gotten the cd. She said she wanted me to get my hair cut because i go to Poland for a school trip soon so i thought that meant it was a necessity and therefore i could still get my fun thing that i want. this haircut is shit. im so pissed off, and i feel like such a brat but my little sister literally gets bought all kinds of stuff and she goes to paid for clubs and i just wanted a cd. thats all i want. idk if im being unreasonable or not and im just so sad about it and its making me feel so guilty idk. i hope u guys had a better week, love you all, bye bye for now !

ok mb i have not posted in a HOT MINUTE ><; i went on a school trip to Poland last weekend, it SUCKED man we walked so much and it was so hot. And then i came home and its a bajiliion degrees here too like WHAT THE HELL its usually raining 24/7 what IS this?? I hate it. I've started embracing being cringe even more and i've been cooking up some DC ocs, im having so much fun with them omg !! i got the cd i was speaking about last update, its peak its so so good i love it ^^ anyway .. thats sort of all i've been up to ! love you all , bye bye for now !!!

HAi gays happy pride month !!! im #out of the closet this year so my one goal this pride month is to get a flag. anyway ,i have spent the whole weekend and more writing a dumb speech for English, i have to present it on tuesday and BOY am i scared. I think everyone else has done serious topics for their speeches and mine is on fucking DC. so thats fun ig. i wont dwell on that tho, i have a hangout with my friends planned next friday!! we are gonna go the cinema to watch the TADC episode. Im not rlly a fan but a lot of my friends are so we are gonna all watch it together and then have a sleepover. I'm a little nervous cuz i haven't actually hung out with two of these friends outside of school and I've only ever had a sleepover with 1 out of the 4 of them ><; im sure it'll be fun tho >:3 To follow up my last post, my Dc ocs are coming along so well, i might share them on here but idk yet cuz theyre VERY unfinished ^^; anyway i love you all , bye bye for now !!

Okay so big updates. well one big update really tbh. I never did my speech because my teacher wasnt in , but i'll probs have to do it tomorrow , so i'll keep u guyz posted on that. TADC episode sucked ass icl but i wasnt really a big fan anyway so im not all that bothered. Now. Drumroll for the big update that happened during sleepover.... I GOT A GIRLFRIEND !!!!! #polycule expanding. So now i have an awesome super hot boyfriend and an awesome super hot girlfriend. i love my life. one more reason to live. im so happy. its given me such a boost in life that i finally fixed the booster gold kandi bracelet i broke ages ago. AND my gf gave me her oldass broken nokia so i can take it apart for its innards. i fucking love taking apart things, especially with screwdrivers. Its the best. i love my partners so much theyre both great. I finished my history hw that had been overdue for like a month as well. Golly the things you do. I have also been expanding on my #dc oc lore. I have four characters so far i think ?? i hope to post about them soon , i made some art of one of them i need to send to my laptop so i'll probably share them then. For now, i love you all , bye bye for now !!

Holy shit. i did my fucking speech. Okay, honestly it was the most embarrassing shit i've ever done because the girl who went first did hers on her chronic illness and the girl who went after me did hers on her dads brain inflamation. And i did mine on superheros. BUt whatever its done and dusted now and im glad its out of the way. My teacher seemed to like it a lot so thats what counts ig. My hands shook so bad during though i could hardly flip through my flashcards , i looked like those people faking anxiety on tiktok back in 2020 it was so embarrassing. Anyway shout out the to girl who manned my powerpoint, the only thing she had to go off on when to change slides was me turning my head, and she did it perfectly so honestly god bless your soul girl ily. That is all for now folks, i love you all , bye bye for now !!!

Hey gang. #serious mode on rn. so like major trigger warnings on this post , skip if you dont want to read about like my mental prblems. stay safe guys. this isnt a happy post.its actually kind of a vent. I probably won't be blogging much for a little bit because icl i had a huge breakdown and ended up admitting to one of the people in school that deal with mental shit or whatever (idk what to call them, we call them Hub staff) but basically i told her about my sh and shit this tuesday i think it was. and she said shed get me help but she had to call my parents about it as well, which was SCARY but its fine ig because they NEVER PICKED UP THE PHONE !!! guess being lowkey neglected worked in my favour this time >:3 in all seriousness though i wish my parents cared about me enough to pick up the phone when school calls them. She said if i dont have some sort of plan for therapy sorted by next monday to tell her but idk whether that still applies because my parents still dont know .. i just want therapy bro im depressed as fuck im actually sick of myself and my unresolved mental problems. I was given a sheet of paper to fill in about my mental health and stuff by the lady, i think im supposed to give that to her tomorrow so im probably gonna fill that in now. Anyway, sorry for the vent post, i needed to get that out, stay safe, i love you all, bye bye for now !!!

Haii gang. Remember how i was supposed to be getting help?? Yeah noone ever got back to me on that. Im STILL not in therapy. But I did look through all the sheets i was given and i downloaded one of the mood tracking journal apps it recommended. So far my longest good day streak is 3. i'd say thats good enough, my partner wishes it could be longer tho. My good day streak was when we called together to play and voice Hiveswap on call so that was nice. I love watching them play games and voice acting the lines with them its so fun!! After Hiveswap i think we are gonna play Deltarune. I hardly know anything about Deltarune, I used to only know fucking Spamtenna which my partner thought was hilarious but now i also know other characters like uh. Susie. And Noelle. And Kris?? is that their name?? Anyway apparently we are really Susie/Kris or Susie/noelle, i'll probably pick a more difinitive ship when i meet the characters to know whether im more noelle or kris but from appearance alone im gonna go with kris, they look cool as hell imo. Okay wow i got off topic there i was meant to talk more about hiveswap. mb mb. Anyway, Wanshi is soo cute that is my daughter i love her so much omfg .. she so cutie i love her it hurts me so bad how cute she is, shes definitely one of my favourites. I also like the dead inside lawyer troll who helps Joey in that same car. idk her name. Wait i can google it im on my laptop. Tyzias Entykk. that one. me and my partner are so Tyzias and Stelsa. ANYWAY for real life things , stuff has been pretty dull. I did work experience last week in a primary school and we were assigned a uh rather difficult class. It was really weird cuz they wouldn't close the school even though it was like 32 degrees and a kid got heatstroke and collapsed and hit his head on a door. So.. glad im not doing that anymore. Shout out to the little girl who made me do gymnastics with her. You were cool. And shoutout to the little dude i worked with in english. Im so proud of you for figuring out speech marks you picked that up so quickly after we went through it together. ANYWAY thats all for now i think, sorry for the MASSIVE post tbf i have been radio silent for like nearly two weeks i think tho so i did have alot to update on >< oh also remember the polycule? yeah no my girlfriend broke up with us. it was very short lasting but tbf she was kinda weird and wouldn't stop hanging around her ex so it was probably for the best. FINAL ANYWAY , i love you all, and bye bye for now !!!

HAIIII ok so icl ive been a little dead but thats lowkey cuz nothing has happened lately. School has finally broken up for the 6 weeks holidays so thats fun ig?? i hung out with my bf yesterday and i tried a pretzel for the first time it was good. ANDDD i finally figured out how to get renpy on my laptop so GAME PROGRESS !!! I am finally picking back up my game 'A walk in the park' so thats really good. Im rewriting the script currently cuz the first draft was SHIT. Ok so next message: I am super excited for monday cuz im going to alton towers with my bf and im hoping to go on rides i havent been on before. Im a bit of a baby so my first rollercoaster experience was only like less than a year ago. ive only ever been on thirteen and wickerman and i LOVED 13 alot i got the shirt and bottle to match. Im hoping to going on galactica and maybe other rides like nemesis. NEXT NEXT message: Im going out for dinner tonight so im a little nervous cuz ive never been to this food place before so i hope they have food i like. FINAL POINT::: im watching the cw flash and omg. ( S3 final ep SPOILERS SPOILERS kind of !!!!!!!) but lowkey the killer frost caitlyn situation is giving non binary. like "those arent me anymore im not caitlyn im not killer frost im something new" you are non binary. SOMEONE SEE MY VISION !!! and on the second to last ep they played murder song by AURORA and thats like. My two autisms combining. i got so excited it made me really sweaty. anyway that is all , i love you all , and bye bye for now !!!